Last post before Singapore. The Boersma's opened up their presents and everything fit! It was so nice to see them trying on their new clothes and it felt like christmas. Oh I am going to miss them so much. Please don't let the airport be an emo moment. I feel so sad just thinking about not seeing them everyday.

What a ride it's been. I mean I couldn't have asked for more. I've made a promise that things are going to be different when I go back and I think it will. I feel so blessed to have been able to see more of the world, and I think there's been alot of growing up thats been done in these couple of months.

I'm still not ready to leave. But I don't think I could have asked for more. I will always think of everyone that I have met, every place that I have been, and every dream that I've set out to make since I've left home.

So it's a day before I fly and everything's almost packed up. What a couple of months it's been. The honest truth is that I've had the best time of my life and I think I've changed alot being able to go away and step out of the fray for awhile. I wonder if things will be different when I'm back, and I'm determined to remember all the things that I've learned the past 4 months.

I feel super sad to leave because it's been so amazing. One of the main reasons I have for not wanting to go back is that I'm afraid I'll slip into the same habits that I used to have. You know just being caught up with work, being too serious. Did I mention being too serious? I am so grateful for every minute that I've spent in California, New York and Toronto. It's made me a better person, a more grateful person, and a happier one for sure.

Today it was fun to spend some time with Jason in Toronto. We basically ate walked and shopped our way through toronto. We had such a good time.

Today I also bought presents for my aunt's family. It felt so good buying things without looking at the price tag. They have been so extremely good to me and it was fitting that they got the best presents ever. I have had such a great time here and I am going to miss them like hell. I can't wait to see the look on their faces when they get their presents.

In many ways I'm going to miss being away, but at the same time I really look forward to coming back.

I can't believe I'll be home in 2 weeks. I really don't know where the time went, and looking at the photos it's been the most amazing 4 months ever.

One of the reasons why I look forward to going home is because I think I've made some fundamental changes in my life and I think it's going to be a fresh start when I get back. I've made some big plans and I can't wait to get to work on them.

Credit crisis and graduation? Whatever. I think I've worked my ass off my whole school life and there's no point being pessimistic now.

Parsons!

Did I tell you guys that me and Dave ran into one of the project runway contestants when we were in NY? That was quite funny. Everytime I watch the show I'm always thinking "damn I should have done art instead". So instead of being sour grapes, this time I followed the contestants and did some sketches according to the challenge.

I think when you think outside the box, you can basically apply the same kind of principles to any kind of art, and that includes clothes.

Tim Gunn, I'll see you at Bryant Park.



the emilia


the evelyn


the shiqin


the tiff


the boons


the angs


the lees




Bryant Park someday

The Song I Wrote For You - Ian

Yesterday night I managed to record a new song I wrote. I think it's not bad for 2 hours of work. I've been watching too much Gossip Girl and I totally ran out of ideas for the chorus so you'll hear where I got the tune of the chorus from haha. The rest of it is original though.

Recently there's been alot of very jack johnson, rachael yamagata relaxed vocals so I thought I'd do something that's laid back in the same way. It's inspired by Soho. Hope you like it.



lyrics:

I wrote a letter
To make you feel better
I'll do whatever it takes

I wrote you a love song
So you can sing along
And if it won your heart over

Everybody wants your lonely heart
No one knows you like I do
Baby put your trust in me and in you

I'm willing to wait
Serve me up on your plate
To be there some day when you're ready

I'm willing to do my part
To mend the hole in your heart
I'll do my part just to love you

I think the best thing about going away is that you realize what you miss and you don't miss. It's like moving into a new apartment. You only keep the things that matter because you know you can't live without them.

Since weijols came I've been thinking of all my best friends, and it's been so good to hear from them even though we're a gazillion miles away doing a gaziliion different things. I really appreciate the friends who've been keeping in touch. It's funny how being apart makes you closer to your best friends.

I think friendship can be measured by how much you want to hug your friends haha. OMG I think I miss you guys badly.

Ok so I think NY is officially off this fall, which is actually a good thing because I really didn't want to rush a vacay to the big apple. But I will be missing it for sure. My god I think I need to get over it by watching some Gossip Girl, which of course is like getting over smoking by watching malboro ads.

Have you heard the song Hot and Cold by Kate Perry? Omg its super funny and so's the video. I was listening to it and I was just thinking. It reminded me of like a conversation I would have with my old self. Well at least if I ever did have a conversation. And a hot girl in a bridal costume standing around while I was having that conversation. Anyways.

Speaking of weird things I've been watching Dexter on dvd. It's about a good serial killer. It's a pretty twisted show. I get pretty uncomfortable watching it actually. One night I was sleeping and had this dream about a murder and all of a sudden I woke up with my mouth open not knowing if I had shouted in my dream or like for real. It's so weird. I never get bad dreams. What is even more weird is why the word weird is spelt "weird" and not "wierd". I always get caught by spell check.