1.23am. 7 more minutes to bed.

Yesterday was a long day. Oh, which basically means it was a normal day. In the morning had my excel presentation for CAT class. Was fucking awesome. I felt like on fire when I presented. The prof was impressed and alot of the other groups were wowed. We even did a silly brochure. Was so worried about this for a long time. PWNAGE bitches.

Had dinner with jasereims. Fun stuff. We went to crystal jade.

Then was at the shop at 2am. Mom and Bap are away so I have to manage the shop.
The fridge alarm went off so had to drive down at midnight to shop to make sure the fridge wasn't open. One of the girls put too much detergent to wash the floor and so there I was remopping the floor at 2am at serene centre by myself. Talked to Karl about running the business. He's also thinking of doing his family business. We decided we're going to conquer China one day.

Karl is very smart (and also like a 5 year old kid haha) and I think of how much the banks are paying us and that's really not what we're worth. You know even running a small ass business pays better than almost anything. Makes me wonder if its worth working for someone. To be honest its not. It's just nice to have a glamorous title and tell people you're from blah blah, but nothing beats pwning the world yourself.

Some days I feel like I have no time to relax at all. Between citi school and the shop I feel like a ping pong ball being batted back and forth. Thank god I have the cars.

In school now everyone has an internship. It's really amazing. Some people have gotten really good places and I'm glad for them. You know once you get your first job, it doesn't matter if you were a loser, or a winner, or the president, or the substitute, or a somebody, or a nobody. Everything goes inside the rubbish bin and is refreshed as either Chia Boon Tat Accounting or something like Goldman Sachs Sales and Trading.

Over the last few months I've been working like mad and I can't wait for the hols to come. I think its paid off alot. And now I feel like I will be able relax alot more when the time comes. I know alot of friends who've worked their asses off. For a GPA, for a job, for an internship, for a dream, and for the future. So congrats you stubborn mofos. Yes you. You crazy idiots who've been working hard in your own ways. For all of you who never took the easy way out. I totally understand how it feels like. And no matter what the outcome, doesn't it feel fucking good to know you did everything you can?

Yay its good friday which means its a long weekend!!

Man SO need to sleep. I actually enjoy the work and school routine because it gives me the best of both worlds but one thing I don't have is enough sleep.

It's my 3rd week with my department and getting along well with the team. We mainly handle financial institutions so we have to be very on the ball about documentation, agreements etc. Val is also at citi so we met for lunch the other day and it was nice to catch up. Also bumped into Sharon Law from my old dept. Isn't the name Sharon Law the coolest? Did you know staff get 21 days of leave? wth.

Met Evelyn for dinner as well. Evelyn is at Estee Lauder now. She's really happy there so that's great. She is definitely the estee type and if she stays she'll be very good at her work. Alot of people getting interviews and internships the last week or so. Congrats ambrose, eric, chloe and weims! It's really exciting. Maybe I should be in HR and just be excited for people all the time haha.

For 3 years we've been doing projects, attending internship talks, doing exams and living in the library. And now we finally have something to show for it. How exciting really. We're almost there.

I was looking at Eric's excel sheet of internship applications and I was like omgg that's damn fierce. But hey this is the fucking time to be fiercer than ever. The fiercest of the fierce. Bap mentioned your first job sets you on a trajectory and I think he's right.

So if you've been working hard, been fighting for something you've wanted. Just keep on keeping on. And kick some ass.

Yikes been quite a while since I last wrote anything. Been so busy. Been working at citi for 2 weeks now and trying to juggle with school. Been quite mad but with proper time management it hasn't been so bad. Times like these you really appreciate the friends that always make an effort to meet up or try to keep in touch. You also appreciate just sitting around and doing nothing. What a luxury.

I can't remember having more than an hour to relax the last 2 weeks. Even on the bus I'm writing in my notebook for my to-do list or catching up with friends on the phone or catching up with sleep. I feel tired talking just talking about it.

Even so life is good. I honestly feel good about going to work and acting as though I'm one of the people in suits and with their blackberrys clipped to their belts. At lunch time I knock off and watch the tons of people from citi head back to the office while I'm rolling up my sleeves and taking off my tie for school. It's like I get to play 2 parts. It feels nice to have the best of both worlds.

O&M got back to me to confirm my internship this summer. I couldn't say no. So just with one e-mail it has been decided that I'm not going to Africa after all. Oh well to be honest right now all I need is abit of sleep. Ok maybe alot. Templeton also got back to me to give me the green light for the internship. So I guess I've just planned my whole year in a matter of 2 weeks. I can't wait because working full-time will be much more manageable than juggling school and work at the same time. Wish I had all the time to try everything in the world.

Everyone's finally getting serious about summer internships now. Tons of people interviewing at tons of different places. I am truly excited for every one of them because it's going to play a big part in where they end up working. I think I've worked quite hard in school and it's nice to know that I finally don't have to worry so much anymore. I've paid my dues this time.

My family is setting up a new business soon. Related to the Island concept so watch for it. I was just telling Dave how we should run the business when we're done with school. Wish he was around because I can help my dad with alot of the strategy and business development ideas but Dave would know alot more about operations and ground work. I somehow feel that no matter where I work at I'll probably leave it to go back to Island someday. Just a matter of when really.

Couldn't sleep last night thinking about my cat project. Woke up like a zombie and headed down to school with Adel to meet some IT guru friend of hers who pointed us in a good direction. Thank god for that because we got inspired and we went back to my place to work like mad. Did tons alot today and ruined my eyesight tons alot also. Thank god adel is in my group otherwise I would have died 10 years ago.

Been quite stressed lately. Del says I get stressed and it's true. It's like a double edged sword. On one hand it makes you do 110% and on the other hand you get eyebags so big you don't need a laptop case.

Sometimes it's when you're stressed then you know who your real friends are. Lately I've been glad I can count on some of my friends to help me out where I need help. And I believe it's God's blessing. And I can't believe I just said that.

Been squinting all week. My eyes are so dry it feels like there's always sand in them. I think my eyes need eyemo on a drip. I told del to pray for me cuz I am so exhausted. Time for bed.