Not writing with any purpose in mind tonight. Just came back from Vincent's wedding. We've known each other for 5 years now and I'm super happy for him. Not long ago we used to go KTV drinking rubbish carlsberg and with him sending me back on his bike. Funny how things have changed so much and so little as well. After the wedding we were laughing and mocking each other, and for a second it felt like we were back in time again, exactly where things left off.
It's been a long week for me. Been feeling on the verge of coming down with something. I'm extremely exhausted. Work and otherwise. A couple of messy things happened. None of which I actually chose to participate in. Life is all about decisions, and as far as humanly possible, I avoid complications and the people who bring them. I think anyone who really knows me would understand. And I am so grateful for the simple but amazing friendships that have kept me going all along.
In the face of a dilemma or a decision, all it takes is a short pause for thought, being yourself, and standing your ground about your own values. And for the most part, it's worked. I think everyone is human. Everyone fucks up. But its really what you do about it that makes all the difference.
With some of the rubbish that's finally ended lately I've been feeling like I need a proper break. An escape from everything and everyone. Sometimes I see a jacket on a store rack and my mind escapes to New York for a moment. For a second I can almost feel like I'm actually there. And although I know I'll be there next year, I've been wishing lately that I had gone.
Everytime I see that coat on my hanger I see alot of things. My dreams. My life. A restart button that I can't wait to press. And I've earned it.
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