I just had dinner with Dzeike and we went for Lan after that. We've been playing this mad game called left 4 dead thanks to Steve. It's 1am and I feel like a zombie could pop out behind me from the toilet any second haha.

I am always reminded that I have the best family and friends ever. They are the ones who make me Ian. Without them I'm really nothing. And that is by no means an overstatement.

So you. Yes you, you know who you are. You inner circle peeps. Don't ever think for a second I am not grateful for you. You mean everything to me, and I am so glad you are a part of my life.

I haven't been this upset or sad in a long time. If this were me a couple of years ago I don't think I could have handled it.

Although I saw it coming, I didn't realize that it would affect me alot more than I thought.

At the same time I'm surprised that I've managed to deal with it this well.

If I didn't have my family, my friends and my life as support I don't think I would been able to cope with it. I'm really grateful for everything in my life.

Today was a reminder that I have my own weakness, but it's how I deal with it that really matters.