I haven't been this upset or sad in a long time. If this were me a couple of years ago I don't think I could have handled it.

Although I saw it coming, I didn't realize that it would affect me alot more than I thought.

At the same time I'm surprised that I've managed to deal with it this well.

If I didn't have my family, my friends and my life as support I don't think I would been able to cope with it. I'm really grateful for everything in my life.

Today was a reminder that I have my own weakness, but it's how I deal with it that really matters.